Good. I know I can't get out of the talks with the delegates tomorrow, but I'm going to bring this up in the morning for sure.
[ He knows Spock is being lenient with him, spoiling him even. He's not even supposed to go there with a detachment, he knows. His safety would be put at risk. He knows. He can't let this go, and Jim is pretty sure Spock knows that. He's grateful for it.
His grey uniform jacket is already unzipped, but he shakes his head slowly, caught up in his thoughts, and takes it off, setting it away on the back of a chair. It feels heavy to wear right now, and he knows it's all in his head. He can hear Pike in his head, from all those years ago: You know what the Federation is, right? It's important. ]
Uhura would be good, yeah. Make sure she has all the back-up she needs. There could be riots. [ He says it like it is only a possibility, but he knows in his gut that it will happen, it's only a matter of time. ]
Earlier I heard an estimate of the death toll before the delegates left us for the evening. It's only growing, and---I'm sitting here talking. [ He doesn't mean to Spock, of course. He means the delegates. ] What am I doing?
What we're doing, in Starfleet, as part of the Federation is important. It doesn't mean anything to the people on ground-level right now. We ---have to be careful here. Very careful.
[ Jim knows cause once he was on ground-level of a tragedy of this magnitude. He knows cause it took him years and years to let go of his bitterness and anger of where was Starfleet when we needed them? ]
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[ He knows Spock is being lenient with him, spoiling him even. He's not even supposed to go there with a detachment, he knows. His safety would be put at risk. He knows. He can't let this go, and Jim is pretty sure Spock knows that. He's grateful for it.
His grey uniform jacket is already unzipped, but he shakes his head slowly, caught up in his thoughts, and takes it off, setting it away on the back of a chair. It feels heavy to wear right now, and he knows it's all in his head. He can hear Pike in his head, from all those years ago: You know what the Federation is, right? It's important. ]
Uhura would be good, yeah. Make sure she has all the back-up she needs. There could be riots. [ He says it like it is only a possibility, but he knows in his gut that it will happen, it's only a matter of time. ]
Earlier I heard an estimate of the death toll before the delegates left us for the evening. It's only growing, and---I'm sitting here talking. [ He doesn't mean to Spock, of course. He means the delegates. ] What am I doing?
What we're doing, in Starfleet, as part of the Federation is important. It doesn't mean anything to the people on ground-level right now. We ---have to be careful here. Very careful.
[ Jim knows cause once he was on ground-level of a tragedy of this magnitude. He knows cause it took him years and years to let go of his bitterness and anger of where was Starfleet when we needed them? ]